I've been quiet. I have lost a dear friend. He was just 31, the same age as me. My heart is broken knowing we shall never see him again. We met at University where 16 of us lived in two corridors, one of boys and one of girls. Half of us married half of them. We've been friends since we were all 18 years old. We have such a shared history. There won't be 16 of us any more, someone will always be missing. The funeral was last Friday and terribly tearful but we shared many good memories. If you are ever in a dark place, please call the Samaritans, I wish he had.